I want to wear dark sunglasses, hop on a plane, and arrive at some exotic destination.
I want to sip fruity cocktails while I lounge sea side in a cabana and read a trashy novel just for fun.
I want to drift off to sleep in the sun, napping the afternoon away, waking up only in time to get ready for a yummy dinner.
Instead, I don layers of sunscreen and arrive at the community pool with dozens of other women and children. I navigate through a sea of swim diapered bottoms and melted popsicles to find a pool chair that has one slat missing and that allows my ass to sink through it. I pass the afternoon away doling out snacks, reapplying sunscreen, and fending off the yawns with caffeinated Diet Coke.
I want to wake up at 10 am and have my morning coffee at a leisurely pace while perched on my shady back deck.
I want to eat chocolate croissants, get my fingers dirty, and lick them off one by one.
I want to spend the morning in my pajamas while I write and write and write. . . with no interruptions.
Instead, I wake at the crack of dawn to watch the puppy poop. I start at least 4 cups of coffee and then leave them all over the house to get cold as I get kids ready for the last days of school. I manuever around the Direct TV men that have their plumber's butts assalting my eyes in full force. I wolf down a cherry pop tart- cold- and then load up the car to start the day's errands.
I want to get dressed up in a pretty frock, put on make-up and fancy, girly shoes.
I want to walk down the stairs in my gorgeous get up and have hubs be speechless.
I want to go out to dinner and dancing and drinks.
And I want to laugh and laugh and laugh.
Instead, I slap down a pizza on the counter for the family. We hurriedly chomp it down, and then we load up the car. Once there, we pop the trunk, get out the snacks and sleeping bags, and hubs and I snuggle with three loves to watch the drive-in movie.
And, we laugh and laugh and laugh.
All is good.
All is good.
*********************Today I am Pouring My Heart out at Shell's.************************